tarot cards and astrology
I’ve had a spiritual awakening my friends!
and its been real swell. living down here in fairfield I think is actually saving my ass. its improving my quality of life by about 500% and I am finding my old self confidence, who ditched me for a while back there…
my aunt is phenomenal. I just have to say that. she’s so much more than phenomenal. she’s an angel. indescribable. and her husband; they’re good people.
I haven’t had a car for the past week or two & they’ve been alternatively letting me borrow their high end, spanking new, super shiny, ridiculously expensive luxury vehicles. this sounds gloaty, but holllly shit. I drive that thing around like a golden eggshell.
golden. eggshell.
but more than the material, they’ve blessed me with so much more than that.
there is a sacred pond at the nature preserve just down the street. that my aunt & her friends blessed. And like, they really blessed it. Not just humming a few chants over it and throwing some ashes in it. Like they BLESSED this damned thing – shamanistic shit right there. and I believe. totally. because that’s what fucking changed my life.
I wasn’t dunked in the pond like John the Baptist or anything – though I would have gone for that too…
We did a Chakra Cleansing. which literally – I felt the effects from immediately. it was a deep meditative experience. And like – I’ve meditated before. I’ve found my spirit animal – Bagheera, waddup. but this guided meditation was powerful and moving. I was numb to the cold, I was numb to my ankle getting squashed and I was totally into it.
we cleansed and also did a guided meditations called the “bucket” meditation. where you take all of your burdens and dump them into a bucket – then the angels or the heavens or the astrological guardians, whatever floats your boat, takes it away.
and that was the most powerful for me- because anybody can be like “okay its been taken from me” but I was already like knee deep into this meditation so I’m in it to fucking win it. and I came to the burden about my mother & that rejection, fear, guilt and ecetera. What was different and striking about releasing this pain versus all the others.. I didn’t want to let it go, or It didn’t want to let go of me.
then in meditation, the angel pulled it from me. and I willingly released it, as I watched that nasty metal, overflowing bucket get carried away elsewhere into the universe.
and it has worked my friends. it has truly worked its white magic healing power on me.
during this unannounced, impromptu spiritual retreat, halloween passed. I didn’t do anything fancy except wear last years costume & smoke a bunch of weed, drinking pumpkin beer. & got my tarots read.
that was also something pretty phenomenal.
we all figured it was the best day to do it, since them spirits is so close to the earth. and it was…. like really pretty cool.
I got a celtic cross done and I wanted to know about my career & where its headed and what I can do to like, make some shit happen. Because twofiftystudios is dragging its feet, which is hella annoying & my partner won’t be back in the game til February… also annoying.
plus I asked about the internship, my poetry book, which I have just sent out to some publishing contests. & I got a fairly clear result.
It started out in the present. it says that I am in the process of a rebirth and I should take my time with big decisions. rushing things to get them done quickly doesn’t always guarantee the best results. It finished with The Page of Fire, meaning that I got this shit on lock. Also two cards in there indicated I will have something like “the midas touch” but I just have to wait for it, cool out and stop stressing.. when its time to work, I will work. but now is the time to rest.
and that’s advice I think anybody can benefit from.
so I’m still on this hiatus. twofifty is taking off around February, poetry submissions are in the mail.
life is good.
xx