I’ve been away recently.
so sorry about that.
life’s too short not to love.
right?
life is definitely too short not to live.
So I’ve been away, working on some other things. Writing related, love related, life related. And its been difficult to come back and put it into words. There are sometimes just too many words, topics, choices; it can get overwhelming. And at that point, I throw my hands up and forgettaboutit.
That’s exactly what my cards have said. I’ve been playing with them a bit recently, although play isn’t exactly the right word. I’ve been asking for guidance on reading them, been facing some roadblocks and negative energies, that the cards are picking up. I’ve drawn The Devil card a record breaking amount for any beginner I can assume. Its been quite startling. I’ve questioned my belief in them, and then I reassess and push myself even harder.
because brooklyn we go hard, we go hard.
b-r-o-ok-l-y-n
brooklyn.
I read for my life in general, love, career, any small fetuses growing inside me. And the overall outcome was that I need a superior motive. Because lately, I’ve maybe been just too complacent. And complacency is stagnancy and that is death itself.
But I’ve thought – well, life is too short not to love. I’ve been in love without choice, and this time I might just be trying to force myself. And you’ll be surprised, somehow it works.
I told my hooper friend Sarah on an impromptu shroomy movie night – Anyone is capable of loving anyone. And she looked at me, square in the face and said, “wow. I’ve honestly never thought of that before… It kind of just sucks all of the romance out of it.” Laughing I said, “oh, yeah well it does. I never thought of that.”
That’s just a minor, minor detail of that night – everyone who reads this should watch, “The Imaginarium of Dr. Parnassus.” because its incredible, and mange mushrooms, it’ll blow your mind.
I told my Mr. Marriage Material Man Friend that same thing; not about the movie, about love. And he had a different response. He said that it was kind of beautiful in a way.
that got me thinking. debating with myself.
the debate goes one. maybe when I settle that shit I’ll stop drawing the damned devil card.
until next time
xx